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and positive are no longer value judgements i make about how i feel or the events of my day to day life. once i started down this path of accepting everything, at least everything that personally affects me, as being what it is supposed to be, i found i lived a whole lot more serene and calm life. that is, however, not to say that when something happens that i find unacceptable, that i do not rant and rail about the unfairness of it all and how could this happen to me. i have not achieved anything close to Buddha-like serenity, but i am certainly on that path. this morning, after turkey dinners the past two days in a row, i am in the mood for some red meat and although i know the ecological toll of raising cattle, today i do not care, after all, that animal has already been knocked down, butchered and shipped to my local purveyor of foodstuffs, so the harm is already done. 😜
this morning, as i got up and started my day, i made a plan and so far i have followed it to a “T.” is that a positive outcome, or merely and outcome? on my spiritual path it is the latter, rather than the former and by attaching little importance to what has happened, i can pay attention to what is happening now, and perhaps be awake and aware enough to see what may be coming down the road. i am certainly responsible for taking care of what i have the ability to care for and when i choose to remember, leave the rest in the care of the POWER that fuels my recovery. i may be able to rationalize my guilt over eating red meat away with a bit of tap dancing, but i choose not rationalize my way out of that for which i am responsible. which right here and right now means lighting up a cigar band traveling over to my home group for a meeting, then a walk with a friend, if he is responsible to be there. i am after all, just another addict in recovery, seeking to do the next right thing, whatever that may be, just for today.

∞ DT ∞