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Posted: Sun, Dec 21, 2025 12:24:59 PM
became clearer, my ability to be honest increased. as i become more honest, my relationship with the truth is corrected and i find that many of the tales i have told in recovery, are more than mere exaggerations. i also have uncovered the fact that stirring the pot and causing chaos is no longer something i have the desire to do. the ironic part of it all, is that desire fell away all by itself, long before i ever read through and started to understand exactly how the TENTH TRADITION applied to my personal life and behavior.
that whole process started because i had the desire to fit in, and what i saw in the rooms, was those who came before me, kept most of their personal opinions out of their shares, unless it was affecting their recovery. i was not really tuned into that fact for quite some time, i just followed their lead, because i so desperately wanted to fit in and be like them. one more example of behaving my way into better thinking. it does amaze me that as i ponder what is and how i got here, a lot of it was the result of very mixed, selfish and self-obsessed motives. i am the very essence of irony when it comes to where i am and where i came from.
anyhow i am ready to get out of the house and start my weekend. i know that as i walk through today, i will have more than enough opportunities to be honest, gain clarity and make my way through this day with a minimum wake. it is a great day to be clean, to sit and enjoy some football and a couple of decent cigars. as i said yesterday, this is one of those days that i can honestly say that any day on this side of the lawn is a good one. 🤗
that whole process started because i had the desire to fit in, and what i saw in the rooms, was those who came before me, kept most of their personal opinions out of their shares, unless it was affecting their recovery. i was not really tuned into that fact for quite some time, i just followed their lead, because i so desperately wanted to fit in and be like them. one more example of behaving my way into better thinking. it does amaze me that as i ponder what is and how i got here, a lot of it was the result of very mixed, selfish and self-obsessed motives. i am the very essence of irony when it comes to where i am and where i came from.
anyhow i am ready to get out of the house and start my weekend. i know that as i walk through today, i will have more than enough opportunities to be honest, gain clarity and make my way through this day with a minimum wake. it is a great day to be clean, to sit and enjoy some football and a couple of decent cigars. as i said yesterday, this is one of those days that i can honestly say that any day on this side of the lawn is a good one. 🤗
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