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Mon, May 5, 2008 10:29:03 AM
μ **any lengths?** i asked, **what do you mean, any lengths?** μ
posted: Mon, May 5, 2008 10:29:03 AM
when i used, i usually had an open mind when it came to finding ways and means to get more drugs. if i am willing to go to any lengths, follow directions, and stay open-minded...
... i can stay can learn to live a program of recovery. and part of living that program is to be responsible to my clients as well as my fellowship. i have been scrambling all morning to get caught up after nine days of service, and i may actually get it done before this day is over. be that as it may, when i came to recovery, i was incapable of having an open mind when it came to doing the things that i need to do to even stay clean, much less live a life of recovery. when it came to facing my fear of going to prison, i finally became just willing enough to start to recover, and since that day, i have stayed clean. it has not been some sort of cake walk, living a program often takes more than i think i have in me. as a result, i fall back into the ways of thinking that start with "there has to be an easier, softer way!"
well, for me this is the easier, softer way. a quick inventory, and i am once again unwilling to loose what i have gained, and as a consequence to keep what i have been given, it is necessary for this addict to follow the example of those who are doing this gig on a daily basis.
and part of that is to finish what i need to finish before running off to where i need to go, so ta-ta for now!
... i can stay can learn to live a program of recovery. and part of living that program is to be responsible to my clients as well as my fellowship. i have been scrambling all morning to get caught up after nine days of service, and i may actually get it done before this day is over. be that as it may, when i came to recovery, i was incapable of having an open mind when it came to doing the things that i need to do to even stay clean, much less live a life of recovery. when it came to facing my fear of going to prison, i finally became just willing enough to start to recover, and since that day, i have stayed clean. it has not been some sort of cake walk, living a program often takes more than i think i have in me. as a result, i fall back into the ways of thinking that start with "there has to be an easier, softer way!"
well, for me this is the easier, softer way. a quick inventory, and i am once again unwilling to loose what i have gained, and as a consequence to keep what i have been given, it is necessary for this addict to follow the example of those who are doing this gig on a daily basis.
and part of that is to finish what i need to finish before running off to where i need to go, so ta-ta for now!
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
2) Let them not thoughtlessly indulge themselves in their ordinary
life; let them not act as if weary of what that life depends on.