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i begin to blossom into that whole, vital human being my Higher Power intended me to be. well, i am running way off schedule today and i am writing this instead of trying to catch-up, and even this is a chore this morning. the result of my novella yesterday, was doing the step work i had been putting off and calling my sponsor to arrange a face-to-face. he does not yet know that i have completed the writing portion of my EIGHTH STEP, but i doubt it will surprise him when i show-up with the list in hand. there are days when i feel that the blossoming process is at the very least stunted in me. and there are days when i feel that it is just hammering me with all kinds of new insights and desires. today, is a day when i am neither extreme, and i can accept that is part and parcel of the entire package. anyhow, not a whole lot to say about maintaining the forward progress of my spiritual journey. i have dumped a load, and i feel good about that, although i doubt that the subject of my blog yesterday actually **got** what i was saying. and you know, that really does not matter, it was for me, and that little exercise clarified for me, what i needed to do after work last night and before i sat down to a mind-numbing activity. truthfully, i may have not got it either, as my sponsor told me last night, those feelings are tied up in a complicated set of relationships, and singling out a small part of that package may or may not be all that is going on. this i am certain of however, that was an integral piece of the puzzle that i was missing, and with that piece, the rest of what is or is not going on inside of me will be easier to ascertain. so back to the projects on my desk, back to enjoying a cigar outside while i take care of the projects on my desk and back to the here and now!

∞ DT ∞