+ of course i pray when i am hurting, HOWEVER +
Posted: Wed, Aug 10, 2011 08:49:09 AM
i am learning that if i pray regularly, i do not be hurt as often or as intensely. okay, jumping on the bandwagon, yes this is so true, it is part of my daily routine and yes my recovery depends on following suggestions like this.
there you have it nothing else new around here, move along.
it is nice when i can so easily dispose of a topic and move a bit deeper into what is happening today. frustration at nothing going according to my plan. is what is happening and yet i have hesitated to start my day over again, it just barely got going. WAH, WAH, WAH.
now here was i? no where yet. the fact that two days in a row speak to me about a HIGHER POWER is interesting as this is the start poof my official crazy season. i know Kathy thinks that whole ides is nuts, but for some reason, i find the final month of my annual cycle to be one where i am batsh!t crazy on so many levels. this morning it is not letting go of outcomes and trying to force the issue, such as posting on FaceBook, and the fact that my headless backup server, shut itself off overnight, even though i did the updates. what i am beginning to feel and possibly even hear, is to slow down, take all of this in stride and just keep moving forward. yes things are not to my liking,. things are not happening the way i WANT then to, but more than likely i am getting what it is I NEED right here and right now, and maybe that is just a little time to pause and reflect on how to get my day going a bit better.
i feel like the addict i went to coffee with after the meeting last night. nuts, frantic, frazzled and without any direction. stopping there for a moment i see what is going on. it is as i suspected more self-will and me trying to assert my will on the pattern of life that is here today. my job? well of course, the exact same thing i told him last night, LET GO, and DO THE NEXT RIGHT THING. which for me right her and right now, is to sign-off, change into my running gear and hit the streets for a quick onec around, before the sun burns off the clouds and the heat takes over once again.and i think i will!
there you have it nothing else new around here, move along.
it is nice when i can so easily dispose of a topic and move a bit deeper into what is happening today. frustration at nothing going according to my plan. is what is happening and yet i have hesitated to start my day over again, it just barely got going. WAH, WAH, WAH.
now here was i? no where yet. the fact that two days in a row speak to me about a HIGHER POWER is interesting as this is the start poof my official crazy season. i know Kathy thinks that whole ides is nuts, but for some reason, i find the final month of my annual cycle to be one where i am batsh!t crazy on so many levels. this morning it is not letting go of outcomes and trying to force the issue, such as posting on FaceBook, and the fact that my headless backup server, shut itself off overnight, even though i did the updates. what i am beginning to feel and possibly even hear, is to slow down, take all of this in stride and just keep moving forward. yes things are not to my liking,. things are not happening the way i WANT then to, but more than likely i am getting what it is I NEED right here and right now, and maybe that is just a little time to pause and reflect on how to get my day going a bit better.
i feel like the addict i went to coffee with after the meeting last night. nuts, frantic, frazzled and without any direction. stopping there for a moment i see what is going on. it is as i suspected more self-will and me trying to assert my will on the pattern of life that is here today. my job? well of course, the exact same thing i told him last night, LET GO, and DO THE NEXT RIGHT THING. which for me right her and right now, is to sign-off, change into my running gear and hit the streets for a quick onec around, before the sun burns off the clouds and the heat takes over once again.and i think i will!
∞ DT ∞