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Posted: Fri, Mar 18, 2005 06:13:22 AM
to quote paul harvey....
i had a myriad of reasons why i could not share everything that was happening to me in an open meeting, and most of them were self-centered selfish SHIT!
looking and sounding good were at the core, if i only shared the positive message about how well i was doing, noone would ever catch on that yes i am a human too!
then there was the arrogant self-righteous phase where a ll shared about was how YOU should SHARE, and WORK YOUR PROGRAM, while putting this nasty little package in a spiritual wrapper making it sound as if i was sharing about myself.
how i ever managed to get to this day clean is truly a miracle and it is despite me not because of me.
today i do not feel the need to share at every meeting, nor do i practice and rehearse what i am going to share -- so i never know exactly what will spill out when i open my mouth and i guess that is a good thing. one little tool i carry into meetings with me is an acronym told to me by a fellow member who is passing quickly through her third decade of recovery -- ‘GGMM’ -- or for the acronym impaired G.od G.uide M.y M.outh. with that thought in mind, and carrying a couple tools that have been given to me over the course of my journey, i can now carry the message of hope: ‘that no matter what happens today -- good, bad or indifferent -- i can stay clean and get yet another day of recovery’
∞ DT ∞
i had a myriad of reasons why i could not share everything that was happening to me in an open meeting, and most of them were self-centered selfish SHIT!
looking and sounding good were at the core, if i only shared the positive message about how well i was doing, noone would ever catch on that yes i am a human too!
then there was the arrogant self-righteous phase where a ll shared about was how YOU should SHARE, and WORK YOUR PROGRAM, while putting this nasty little package in a spiritual wrapper making it sound as if i was sharing about myself.
how i ever managed to get to this day clean is truly a miracle and it is despite me not because of me.
today i do not feel the need to share at every meeting, nor do i practice and rehearse what i am going to share -- so i never know exactly what will spill out when i open my mouth and i guess that is a good thing. one little tool i carry into meetings with me is an acronym told to me by a fellow member who is passing quickly through her third decade of recovery -- ‘GGMM’ -- or for the acronym impaired G.od G.uide M.y M.outh. with that thought in mind, and carrying a couple tools that have been given to me over the course of my journey, i can now carry the message of hope: ‘that no matter what happens today -- good, bad or indifferent -- i can stay clean and get yet another day of recovery’
∞ DT ∞