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Tue, Mar 22, 2005 05:48:14 AM
∞ self-support and my recovery ∞
posted: Tue, Mar 22, 2005 05:48:14 AM
what???? self-support is not just for groups anymore?????
well truthfully it never was and i also understand today that self-support is does not mean i that i just pay my way with the money in my pocket. although money is important to allow me the freedom to purchase those creature comforts on which i have grown to depend -- food, shelter, and water, -- for me that is only the tip of the iceberg, money is only one form currency that i purchase my freedom with. today i can decide whether i will invest in my future by doing those things that KEEP ME CLEAN. i need to speak to an addict every single day to remind myself of who and what i am. i need to ask for the POWER TO STAY CLEAN TODAY from a POWER GREATER than my disease. i need to access the combined wisdom of those who have gone before. AND i need to do whatever it takes to stay clean today. this currency allows me the freedom to move among the world as an equal, look people in the eye and be the best person i can be RIGHT NOW. none of this make me self-sufficient, nor does any of this free me from my responsibilities that i have chosen to take on. do i really want the freedom that self-support in all areas of my life brings, not always but i cannot pick and choose, i am just another garden variety addict who only knew how to suck my sustenance from the world around me, i am becoming a person who is learning how to pay as i go in whatever currency i need to.
∞ DT ∞
BTW: to my dear friends linda and brenda – i am sad at the news of your loss. although there is nothing i can do to relieve of the pain you need to feel, i will be present to listen and share your grief so you do not have to do it alone.
well truthfully it never was and i also understand today that self-support is does not mean i that i just pay my way with the money in my pocket. although money is important to allow me the freedom to purchase those creature comforts on which i have grown to depend -- food, shelter, and water, -- for me that is only the tip of the iceberg, money is only one form currency that i purchase my freedom with. today i can decide whether i will invest in my future by doing those things that KEEP ME CLEAN. i need to speak to an addict every single day to remind myself of who and what i am. i need to ask for the POWER TO STAY CLEAN TODAY from a POWER GREATER than my disease. i need to access the combined wisdom of those who have gone before. AND i need to do whatever it takes to stay clean today. this currency allows me the freedom to move among the world as an equal, look people in the eye and be the best person i can be RIGHT NOW. none of this make me self-sufficient, nor does any of this free me from my responsibilities that i have chosen to take on. do i really want the freedom that self-support in all areas of my life brings, not always but i cannot pick and choose, i am just another garden variety addict who only knew how to suck my sustenance from the world around me, i am becoming a person who is learning how to pay as i go in whatever currency i need to.
∞ DT ∞
BTW: to my dear friends linda and brenda – i am sad at the news of your loss. although there is nothing i can do to relieve of the pain you need to feel, i will be present to listen and share your grief so you do not have to do it alone.
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
4) (Those who) possessed the highest (sense of) propriety were (always
seeking) to show it, and when men did not respond to it, they bared
the arm and marched up to them.