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ROUND TWO
well i guess the POWER that fuels my recovery does have my back today. yes it is true, that i just lost everything i wrote before in a fit of pique and frustration by accidentally closing my browser, which is what happens when i get frustrated and angry at stuff i should just let go.
back to the topic at hand as i listen to the rather disturbing hold music at walmart.com customer service. which was rewarding as i got everything taken care of possibly. i may still have to deal with Paypal, but that will be a bridge i can cross when i get there.
so the reading about how service is so important to the fellowship as well as to my myself. i started down a tangent earlier, and now that i reconsider as i am of a cooler head and more focused on this task, i can see that what i thought was a tangent is actually speaking to the topic. so i get to save my face as well, thanks HP for having my back.i know that when i got to recovery, my sense of how i affected the world around me was to put it mildly, just a bit warped.
i am now back on hold at walmart.com,. i guess i have to just go on and my run will have to wait. all of this for a $20 savings, the journey continues.
sometimes it feels that no matter what i do, in fact the harder i try, the worse things get. it is nice to know that even if it feels like nothing is happening, when i choose to do my best to carry the message to the addict who still suffers, i do have an positive effect on the fellowship that is my recovery home. or most of the time anyhow. there are days when it feels like, well i have already said that. i know there are no lifetime achievement awards for service to the fellowship. i know that i am expected to serve and serve gratefully. i know that service is part of a solid recovery program. even knowing all of that i forget, how important it is for me to feel like, i can be a force for change. so walmart.com has severely messed up my morning and now i am way late to run.
at 66 degrees, it means not the long run i was thinking about this morning, but something a bit shorter. i can will be a force for change in my personal life and if i allow myself to be, a force for change in my recovery, professional, and family lives as well. it is all about walking the walk and becoming the person i have always wanted to be.
BTW, none of those old friends, who i wrote about yesterday, gave me a call or dropped me a line, curious how things sometimes work out.

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