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Tue, Mar 12, 2013 10:02:35 AM
∪ today, i think i will take a break from the routine ∪
posted: Tue, Mar 12, 2013 10:02:35 AM
and stretch my potential to its fullest. well this morning has been anything but routine or boring, one surprise, after another, but all is well, i got one fire out, and slid into work, on time.
as i sit here pondering over the topic i chose this morning, i am amazed that i can be so calm after all the chaos going on around me. honestly, i feel like i should be in quite a state of anxiety and frustration, but i took a big stogie with me when i left the house, so the fire, the snow and the chaos really have left me just grateful that i can do this gig, just for today.
yes, there are times, when i just get bored doing the same things every day. yes there are times when i feel the need to reach out and create some chaos. yes there are even times, when i wonder if this is as good as it gets. as insane as all of that may sound, and right now tha sounds nucking futz, when i get into that state, gradititude gets put down the sh!tter. well this morning, i see that those times, as well as taking things in stride, are just part of the gig of walking on this side of the grass. life is… just life.
when i consider where i came from, and where i am going, it really is amazing. i was a total nit case when i came to the rooms, i thought success, meant never failing. and missed the notion that the road to success often goes through a failure or two. today, at least right here and now, i can accept that i will never fail, if i do not strive to do more than i believe i can. i never believed i could live without getting high, and yes here i sit 5661 days later, still clean and still hoping for more days clean. i never believed i would own a house, be a partner in a loving equal relationship or have the education, career or job i currently have and yet all of that is my reality, boring as it seems some days, because i CHOOSE to be more and look beyond the limits and constraints that once were my prison,
anyhow, time to get back to reality, it is a good day to have a life and to be clean, and i think that will be my credo of the day.
as i sit here pondering over the topic i chose this morning, i am amazed that i can be so calm after all the chaos going on around me. honestly, i feel like i should be in quite a state of anxiety and frustration, but i took a big stogie with me when i left the house, so the fire, the snow and the chaos really have left me just grateful that i can do this gig, just for today.
yes, there are times, when i just get bored doing the same things every day. yes there are times when i feel the need to reach out and create some chaos. yes there are even times, when i wonder if this is as good as it gets. as insane as all of that may sound, and right now tha sounds nucking futz, when i get into that state, gradititude gets put down the sh!tter. well this morning, i see that those times, as well as taking things in stride, are just part of the gig of walking on this side of the grass. life is… just life.
when i consider where i came from, and where i am going, it really is amazing. i was a total nit case when i came to the rooms, i thought success, meant never failing. and missed the notion that the road to success often goes through a failure or two. today, at least right here and now, i can accept that i will never fail, if i do not strive to do more than i believe i can. i never believed i could live without getting high, and yes here i sit 5661 days later, still clean and still hoping for more days clean. i never believed i would own a house, be a partner in a loving equal relationship or have the education, career or job i currently have and yet all of that is my reality, boring as it seems some days, because i CHOOSE to be more and look beyond the limits and constraints that once were my prison,
anyhow, time to get back to reality, it is a good day to have a life and to be clean, and i think that will be my credo of the day.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
6) Now propriety is the attenuated form of leal-heartedness and good
faith, and is also the commencement of disorder; swift apprehension
is (only) a flower of the Tao, and is the beginning of stupidity.