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or how long i have been clean for i still make meeting attendance a HIGH priority. okay, call me superstitious or just plain anal, BUT i still go to at least three meetings a week, yay me. the simple fact is, i GOT in the habit of attending meetings when i worked a FEAR based program, now that i work a HOPE based program, i have yet to see, that cutting back on meetings is a good idea. i have a life today, which was a far cry of what it was when i got here. i started writing this an hour ago while multi-tasking trying to put a fire out here at work, and i have more than lost my train of thought. give me a second to regroup.
alright then, i am back.
so after calling my addict, and walking away, i can come back to this theme.
okay once again, i am back, man am i having trouble getting this done. i know i was going to talk about meeting makers making it, however after the ya this morning is going that seems so trivial. where i have ended up going is that today, i am grateful that i GET to go to meetings. yes, you got that right, i am grateful that i have that ability. i know of some still suffering who feel they lack that ability, for whatever reason. i can sympathize, but i can hardly empathize, as it has been my experiences that no matter what i have doing, no matter how long i have been clean, and no matter how i feel, a meeting was often just what i needed to be sane enough to survive another day.
today, i feel like an island of calm, in a sea of chaos, but all of that may change in a few. i can be okay moving forward. it is a good day to be clean.

∞ DT ∞