โฅ i sometimes feel broken but i go on, โฅ
Posted: Wed, May 29, 2013 09:32:45 AM
knowing that my life will be repaired. broken is a great way to describe myself this morning. acting out of anger i bought something that i could game to use, but really i am not eligible for anymore. it only took five minutes after the fact to realize that it was wrong, and i am trying to return the software, so who knows, maybe the POWER that fuels my recovery will take care of me in this instance or maybe i will have to learn a painful financial lesson. be that as it may, i feel better trying to correct my mistake and i see that it was frustration at not getting what i want, when i want it, that led up to pulling the online trigger.
certainly a good lesson for me, today of all days, as i one of the men i sponsor may be living in that frustrating place of unmet expectations. the real irony here, is what i have been talking to him about is the EXACT thing i did, bending my will to control the uncontrollable and using ways and means to get what i want, not what i really need.
anyhow, i have to get rolling at work so, i will leave off with this thought -- just for today, i can own my wrongs, make the appropriate corrections and allow the POWER that fuels my recovery to care for me.
certainly a good lesson for me, today of all days, as i one of the men i sponsor may be living in that frustrating place of unmet expectations. the real irony here, is what i have been talking to him about is the EXACT thing i did, bending my will to control the uncontrollable and using ways and means to get what i want, not what i really need.
anyhow, i have to get rolling at work so, i will leave off with this thought -- just for today, i can own my wrongs, make the appropriate corrections and allow the POWER that fuels my recovery to care for me.
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