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is a life worth living. as i roll out this morning, i begin to wonder if i really am, impulse free when it comes to making decisions? based on my behavior over the past week, the answer would probably be: not yet, which i guess is the best i can hope for. before i get any darker and fatalistic, i need to do a shout-out:

Jack W
7 years clean!
Amazingly Wonderful
Keep Coming Back

ok, where was i? decision-making in recovery. the real trick here is for me to look for growth, as i doubt i will ever be free from impulsive decision-making, and be one of those who always makes carefully crafted, considered and researched decisions. today i understand and accept, that there are consequences every time i make a decision, good, bad or indifferent, they are there never the less. today i realize the act of avoiding a decision, is certainty making a decision as well. i cannot blame fate, karma, society, my peers, or my family for the consequences of me choosing NOT to decide, although when i came to recovery, that was what i was all about.
i really could go on in this vein, but i feel like i am being a parrot, so i am deciding to end this for now, move into my day, and see what i can get done. it is a good day to be clean and i am grateful i can decide to be a part of it.

∞ DT ∞