Blog entry for:

loving, caring, and greater than myself and of course the part of me i call addiction.
okay, i might as well face this head on: the POWER that fuels my recovery has no humanly enumerable attributes, so i could just say that move along and be over with it. would i say that in a meeting of my local fellowship, perhaps, especially if everyone in the room has been prattling on and and on about their “GOD.” what i would and would not say in a meeting is not what i am writing about this morning, i just wanted to clear the air before i started down my path.
the world these days seems to be filled by those who are very touchy about anyone saying or depicting anything that is the least bit offensive to anyone's sensibilities, be they religious, cultural or physical. all of a sudden our government seems to want to protect each and every one of us from any mental anguish that satire, humor or just plain ignorance may cause and as a result, it seems those who are the most likely to be offended ratchet their response to such minor and imagined slights, that there is really no freedom of expression left anywhere. of course, that same government tells me it NEEDS to intercept all my electronic communications, text messages and phone calls, because it is PROTECTING me from those very same over-reactors and that somehow, by increasing the size of the haystack, they may be better able to find those needles.
well the government is not my higher power, nor is the opinion of anyone else. i have from time to time, allowed both of those constructs to rule my life, sometimes, what seemed voluntarily, but in the final analysis, i always volunteered to surrender myself into the care of those higher powers. today, well the good news is that today, not so much. the POWER that fuels my recovery, is just that: THE POWER. i need no trappings of human attributes, ritual or over complicated explanations about “meta” or “energies”, IT just is, and i have FAITH that, that POWER provides me and all my fellows, the opportunities to get everything, all of them need today. it is not up to me, to show anyone else the path to righteousness, nor to convince anyone else of my world view of the spiritual nature of life beyond my senses, that job is well filled by thousands if not millions of proselytizers all around the world. my job is to let those i have contact with, today, that there is a POWER, they need to find their way to IT, and if they want what i have, they need to do what i did. i do not need a guru or guide to this other worldview, in fact, stumbling around in the dark, with a vague set of requirements allowed me to uncover that POWER within me, and as i move forward will allow me to better express what my view is becoming.
anyhow, today the broads may once again be similar in frictionless surfaces as an ice skating rink, so the time has come to shower off, dress up and head on down to work, certain that if i allow myself to feel what is going on, i will have knowledge of the will of the POWER that fuels my recovery and discover that i also have the power to carry that out.

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