β i can*t, β
Posted: Fri, Mar 25, 2016 07:34:06 AM
as i ponder over the past few days, twice i heard a peer speaking of how they lie. no not the same peer, two different ones. one was making excuses, the other was moving forward in their recovery, and yet the statements were eerily alike. one has over a decade clean, the other, not quite so much, and yet both were struck bu they own dishonesty. it is not them and what they are thinking this morning, but it does come back to the notion that i need my peers and friends in recovery, in order to continue my recovery journey. i have seen the consequences of too many, who believed they could write their own program and do this gig on their own, guess what a drink with dinner, is using, pretending that somehow it is not, is a lie.
which brings me back to the notion that i cannot do this gig, without the direction and example of others. across the course of my recovery journey, i have met many addicts, some who have stayed clean, some who have not, some that have stuck with a program, many who have not. each and every one of them have left something behind, and when i sit down and consider what and where i am, i know that it is as a result i am where i am today, and not despite them. as much as i like to take credit for my recovery, and do not get me wrong, i have made a great effort to stay clean and learn to implement it, into my daily life, it was my peers, and my predecessors that taught me HOW to do it and encouraged me to stick it out when it was tough.
it is, without a doubt a good place to stop and head on down the road to work. thaks to all of you, i have a place to go and earn the resources i need to maintain the lifestyle i have grown accustomed to.
∞ DT ∞