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Wed, Mar 25, 2009 09:51:41 AM
μ admit no weakness, conceal all shortcomings, deny every failure, go it alone -- that was the creed i followed μ
posted: Wed, Mar 25, 2009 09:51:41 AM
i denied that i was powerless over my addiction, that my life had become unmanageable, despite all evidence to the contrary. the irony of the title line of this blog is, that even today, i find myself falling into that same sort of thinking. despite or possibly because of the fact that i have some days in a row clean. what a lie, clean time != recovery. although i feel less powerless over my addiction these days, and my life looks more manageable, the actual truth is far from what i would like to perceive.
yes, the only reason i am clean, and have been clean for as long as i have, is because i admit, grudgingly at times, that i lack the power to stay clean inherently. with that admission comes the possibility that i can do what it takes to surrender my life into the care of that POWER from which my desire and ability to stay clean comes from.
so i am running a bit behind this morning, it has been a busy day so far, i will close with this thought. i am not alone, i make mistakes, and have shortcomings, and yes i do not know it all. BUT, with that realization comes the HOPE that a POWER GREATER THAN ME can provide for all my needs and keep me clean today. so off to the real world.
yes, the only reason i am clean, and have been clean for as long as i have, is because i admit, grudgingly at times, that i lack the power to stay clean inherently. with that admission comes the possibility that i can do what it takes to surrender my life into the care of that POWER from which my desire and ability to stay clean comes from.
so i am running a bit behind this morning, it has been a busy day so far, i will close with this thought. i am not alone, i make mistakes, and have shortcomings, and yes i do not know it all. BUT, with that realization comes the HOPE that a POWER GREATER THAN ME can provide for all my needs and keep me clean today. so off to the real world.
∞ DT ∞
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These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
3) Thus it is that dignity finds its (firm) root in its (previous)
meanness, and what is lofty finds its stability in the lowness (from
which it rises). Hence princes and kings call themselves 'Orphans,'
'Men of small virtue,' and as 'Carriages without a nave.' Is not this
an acknowledgment that in their considering themselves mean they see
the foundation of their dignity? So it is that in the enumeration
of the different parts of a carriage we do not come on what makes
it answer the ends of a carriage. They do not wish to show themselves
elegant-looking as jade, but (prefer) to be coarse-looking as an (ordinary)
stone.