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of tomorrow to tomorrow.
of course i am asked, and have asked myself, what exactly is a problem that belongs to tomorrow and can i really leave it sit? there is certainly more than enough indications in the fellowship and in the literature, that i need to do the foot work to get what i DESIRE and NEED, what if that like a good boy, i am deferring a pay-off until further down the road, does that mean i sit still do nothing but live in the moment and deal with what comes up in the here and now?
QUESTIONS -- QUESTIONS -- QUESTIONS
the actual truth is that with those questions, i am looking for a loophole. i know what living in the moment means. i know what dealing with the problems that are manifest in real-time means, and yet i still seek to find the means not to do something that is good for me. if i want a college degree, and at l;one time i did, then i need to secure the funding, make my application and go through the enrollment process. in that case, everything that needed to be done before the deadline, that i could accomplish in real-time, were problems that were in today and needed to be dealt with, in the here and now. deadlines, notwithstanding, even some of the footwork that i NEEDED to do to get into college, buy a house, secure a job or any of a myriad of other tasks that happen in the future, have pieces i can and will handle today, and leave the rest until tomorrow.
what is it that living in the her and now means for me today? well for me, and of course i am speaking for myself here, living in the here and now, means that what comes up today, i take care of today. living in the unknowable future, magnifies my task of dealing with the here and now. as i try to multi-task, and i am not doing a very good job of either of the tasks i am attempting to do, i guess i need to get back into the here and now and take of bidness here.
living in the moment, at least for me, does not mean sitting on my a$$ waiting for everything i DESIRE or NEED to just fall into my lap. what it does mean is that i look at what needs to be dealt with today, whether it is a decision or an activity that may or may not something tomorrow, and take care of it. If iot is an activity or decision that needs to be made tomorrow, i let of it go, and have FAITH that i will have the resources to deal with it, when the time is correct. it really is that simple and requires no more rationalization or justification or explanation from me, it simply just IS.
so time to let go of this, post on the interwebs and get moving along in my daily tasks, stuff that needs to be dealt with RIGHT here and RIGHT now.

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