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Wed, Mar 15, 2006 07:07:00 AM
∞ striving to feel a part of the fellowship ∞
posted: Wed, Mar 15, 2006 07:07:00 AM
so back to the reading after a short vent.
just as fear is at the core of alienation, fear is at the heart of my dilemma. i want everyone‘s approval, and have spent most of my life seeking that approval. if that approval was not forthcoming, i sought their attention by acting-out in a negative manner. one way or another i was going to get noticed PERIOD! so after a bit of time in recovery, i know about both of those behaviors, and setting boundaries. so toady i must face my fear and appropriately do what is in front of me, and it probably will not be as bad as i am making it out. after all, i am a part of something greater and that greater whole has given the spiritual toolbox to handle anything i need to do!
Happy Two Year Anniversary Stevie Ray!
∞ DT ∞
While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
Another Look!
∞ being a part of ∞ 315 words ➥ Tuesday, March 15, 2005 by: donnot∞ i believed that if i let others get to know me, they would only find out how terribly flawed i was. ∞ 342 words ➥ Thursday, March 15, 2007 by: donnot
∞ active addiction set me apart from society, isolating me. … 378 words ➥ Saturday, March 15, 2008 by: donnot
↔ with my newly found friends in the fellowship, i no longer have to live a life of isolation ↔ 459 words ➥ Sunday, March 15, 2009 by: donnot
§ active addiction sets me apart from society, isolating me § 685 words ➥ Monday, March 15, 2010 by: donnot
♦ the get-togethers after meetings are good opportunities ♦ 638 words ➥ Tuesday, March 15, 2011 by: donnot
½ i no longer have to live a life of isolation ½ 292 words ➥ Thursday, March 15, 2012 by: donnot
∑ i learn to make small talk at these impromptu gatherings ∑ 681 words ➥ Friday, March 15, 2013 by: donnot
± once it becomes evident, how terribly flawed i am ± 715 words ➥ Sunday, March 15, 2015 by: donnot
⋰ feeling ** a part of ** ⋱ 730 words ➥ Tuesday, March 15, 2016 by: donnot
🍎 allowing myself 🍏 675 words ➥ Wednesday, March 15, 2017 by: donnot
🎰 if i let others 🎲 591 words ➥ Thursday, March 15, 2018 by: donnot
😏 familiarity and friendliness, 😝 588 words ➥ Friday, March 15, 2019 by: donnot
🛍 IF i allow 🛒 526 words ➥ Sunday, March 15, 2020 by: donnot
🌫 terribly flawed 🌫 327 words ➥ Monday, March 15, 2021 by: donnot
😨 the lie 😱 586 words ➥ Tuesday, March 15, 2022 by: donnot
🤜 goodwill and 🤛 593 words ➥ Wednesday, March 15, 2023 by: donnot
😓 FEAR is 😵 346 words ➥ Friday, March 15, 2024 by: donnot
☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
1) Who knows his manhood's strength,
Yet still his female feebleness maintains;
As to one channel flow the many drains,
All come to him, yea, all beneath the sky.
Thus he the constant excellence retains;
The simple child again, free from all stains.
Who knows how white attracts,
Yet always keeps himself within black's shade,
The pattern of humility displayed,
Displayed in view of all beneath the sky;
He in the unchanging excellence arrayed,
Endless return to man's first state has made.
Who knows how glory shines,
Yet loves disgrace, nor e'er for it is pale;
Behold his presence in a spacious vale,
To which men come from all beneath the sky.
The unchanging excellence completes its tale;
The simple infant man in him we hail.