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this morning what i was struck by was the irony of my admission of believing i was broken was the number of times i said to a sponsee, friend or peer, that were certainly NOT broken and that lie was keeping them from moving forward. man oh man, was that a slap in the face, this morning. i am sure part of my denial about what the real lie for me, was to assuage my fragile self-image. i was “better” than the average bear, if i never owned my belief that i was broken for a very, very, very long time. i am truly amazed how long i held on to the lie that was keeping me from moving forward.
moving forward this morning, i have two feet or so of heavy wet snow to rearrange and plenty of time to chill today, as my car will not make it down my alley-way. it is nice though, to be able to stay clean for long enough that i GET to see others achieve “long-term” recovery:

Larry Q.
SEVEN (7) years clean!
Keep coming and being a 'part of' my recovery

i really at am a loss for words today. grateful that they found something wrong with my Dad in the hospital. sad that he threw an abscess and needed to go in the middle of the night, by ambulance at the start of a historic snowstorm. hopefully there will be enough traffic up and down my ally this morning, to let me get out of the house, later this afternoon, so i can go visit him. the time has come, however for round one of snow removal, or better put snow re-arrangement. it is a good day to be clean and even if i am stuck in my house, i have enough to do to keep me busy.

∞ DT ∞