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Posted: Tue, Jun 15, 2021 07:06:00 AM

changing does not make my life any better? sitting here this morning, waiting for the paint to dry on a task that should have run last night, i am struck by the events of the past day. i got a cold call interview request from a local company, that is way out of my league. the other party was twenty minutes late, but i waited for him to show up, just so i could tell him that i think they made a mistake reaching out to me. what i took away form that interview was that they were looking for someone with long term work experience and what i knew was less important than who is was and what i could bring to their table. of course, i was so dumbfounded that i failed to ask any pertinent questions and left it at that. considering that this was the second time i got a cold-call and the last time, i failed to follow-up, i twisted and turned as i fell asleep last night and wondered what if anything i should have asked. so this morning, i shot off my first round of questions, to show that i have interest and yes am excited about a possible change from what i know how to do.
when i consider what change has brought to me, across the course of my recovery, it seems that when i allow myself the opportunity to step out of my box, the results are certainly to my liking. that applies to going back to school, converting my commute time into a workout, and accepting a Dev-Ops job when i was comfortably ensconced as a front end developer. instead of worrying about the impression i did not make yesterday, i think i will get out on the streets and let go of whether or not, the other job i kicked off, is actually running. oh yeah, let go of what i believe i cannot do and see what i can and will be able to do today.

∞ DT ∞


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Tao Te Ching

☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯

The Tao Teh King, or The Tao and Its Characteristics
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge

Book 2

3) With all the sharpness of the Way of Heaven, it injures not; with
all the doing in the way of the sage he does not strive.