๐คจ the core of ๐ฅด
Posted: Sat, Aug 14, 2021 07:54:33 AM
of my being has been so trashed over th course of the past six months, i am finally excited to get a brand new start. much like Virginia in that Billy Joel song, i feel as if i got a brand new soul, the LIE that has limited my growth and kept me oppressed, no longer is my story. on my last day in Greece, as i gazed at the leftovers of the Parthenon, i felt the ruins of that previous life, echoing in my head. letting go of what was and allowing what is to take over, is freeing from the limits i have lived under for so long. being freed from the slavery of active addiction was a huge event in my life. being freed from the lie that i am broken is a process that has taken over 23 years.
it has been quite a trip and a very nice transition from a job that i was afraid to move on from, to a job i will find challenging and doing something i WANT to do. as i get more comfortable with where i am going, perhaps i will choose to open my life up to those i have been keeping out. i GET an opportunity to forge a whole new path, in my career, in my personal life and in my recovery. it might be time to see cynicism and sarcasm as defects of character and be ready to have them removed. maybe what i see ass intrinsic parts of who i am are vestiges off the defense mechanisms i once needed to survive. ii may not be sure what tomorrow holds for me, in fact i do not even know what will happen in the next hour. i do know that maybe i will light up a cigar and read the news of the world, so i can reduce the culture shock of re-entering the world.
it has been quite a trip and a very nice transition from a job that i was afraid to move on from, to a job i will find challenging and doing something i WANT to do. as i get more comfortable with where i am going, perhaps i will choose to open my life up to those i have been keeping out. i GET an opportunity to forge a whole new path, in my career, in my personal life and in my recovery. it might be time to see cynicism and sarcasm as defects of character and be ready to have them removed. maybe what i see ass intrinsic parts of who i am are vestiges off the defense mechanisms i once needed to survive. ii may not be sure what tomorrow holds for me, in fact i do not even know what will happen in the next hour. i do know that maybe i will light up a cigar and read the news of the world, so i can reduce the culture shock of re-entering the world.
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