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shortcomings is certainly a topic i needed yesterday, as i got quite defensive over stuff two different friends brought up in conversations with them. in the first one, i felt i was being disrespected and in the second i meant to be educational, rather than confrontational. thing did not quite work out that way and i had to admit i was wrong, not wronged, in both cases. i am not quite sure what was going on with me yesterday, but i certainly have had much better days. this morning, i had to run to the store and get some anti-histamine products to combat the allergic reaction i am having to the yellow-jacket bite i received yesterday, taking care of HOA bidness. i know that sooner or later my body will complete its defense of the venom that damn bug put under my skin, but i felt thee need to give my defense a bit of a medical one-up through a few Over-The-Counter medications. of course, that treatment will not be quick enough and i will act impatiently as i wait for the results to manifest, and as a shortcoming, that is certainly one i will have all sorts of practice surrendering today.
coming back to the here and now, i can feel my frustration building as i have the expectation that i should get some instant relief. what i need to remember is that i allowed this condition to progress to where it is, because of yet another shortcoming, denial that i had to do anything to assist my body in fighting off this condition. what that means for me, is that i will certainly need to tread carefully in my interactions with others, as for me frustration easily boils over into anger, bitterness and wanting to lash out and thump someone. as much as it would be nice to act out, i actually hate admitting that i am wrong and having to clean up the messes i make when i wrong someone else.
the other action i will need to take is to make my workout this morning a little bit less intense than i was planning and perhaps a bit shorter as well. that i will play by ear, as i get prepared to make that journey through the neighborhoods around me. i am okay in surrendering my shortcomings today, as i know i have a POWER in my life that fuels my recovery. it is a good day to be okay with what is and what i have and see if i will need to go to urgent care, later today. all of that is yet to be revealed and i am okay with that, just for today.

∞ DT ∞