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just do not understand! one of my favorite refrains, even after a minute clean. no matter how many times i may utter those words, out loud or quietly under my breath, the fact is, my peers in recovery do understand me. my family members and the others in my life, who are not part of my recovery network, do not and never will. i gave up trying to “educate” them, a long, long time ago. part of the issue, at least as i see it, is that what are accomplishments for those of us doing this recover gig, is just life for them. getting up and not sticking a needle in their arm is just what they do. today, i am taking most of the day off, to go share some time with a friend, a peer and a sponsee who happen to be celebrating yet another trip around the sun, clean:

Jay T,
Twenty-four (24) years clean!
What a long strange trip it has been
Congrats my friend and brother.

one might consider that because i am “at leisure” i “get” to chase a winter storm and take the trip up north to celebrate with him in person. if one was a subscriber to the “nothing happens without a reason” manner of looking at life, one might think this was manufactured, just for me. i am not, one of those and i am taking the opportunity to be there for someone i care about and with whom i have shared many JFTs along our respective recovery journeys. whether or not i get “stuck” in the storm is yet to be determined, but i am throwing my laptop into the car, just in case.
being a part of the lives of others, whether or not they “get” me or not, is part of what i do, these days anyhow. my life is full because of all of them and celebrating their milestones and achievements, is important to me, especially now that i know the lie i lived by, has been put into its proper perspective. as i sat this morning, what i kept hearing was that it is important for me to be present for whatever comes down the pike today. i have a plan in place, with several solutions to whatever problems may arise, as i go forward into this cold, winter's morning. my hope is that i arrive home, safe and sound, just as the snow starts to fly and get tucked in and settled into my nice warm house as the winds howl and the cold descends from the north-west. time will tell, for sure, but it is a good day to have the desire to get out and run, just because i CAN.

∞ DT ∞