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Posted: Sun, Feb 1, 2026 12:25:21 PM
to practice acceptance by listening to my peers, with care and attention. this morning, or better put, this afternoon, i feel like my day is complete. for the first time since September, i am not rushing to get to the cigar lounge, to get my seat for an afternoon of football, and yet, here i am, right on schedule, even though i am not trying to adhere to any timetable. habitual behavior is hard to pitch into the bit bucket! 😆
as i consider that the path to accepting myself, runs through accepting others, i see that the action part is suspending my internal dialogue. of course the judgement machine is one of those habitual behaviors that i am finding hard to discard. decades of protecting myself by being the first to judge, by evaluating their words and deeds, is a huge chunk of inertia to overcome. the good news is, it seems that this set of steps seems to be giving m,e a way to break out into a new set of behaviors. as i look at the sparseness of my resentment list, i am mildly surprised and certainly pleased as to the nature of my resentments: MAGAts and their politicians seem to be the bulk of them and i am not quite sure what my part is in those, after all, i voted anti-MAGAt down my entire ballot. any way, it is time to get rolling on down the road for an afternoon of doing as little as possible. life in my skin is pretty good today, i got a run in, i got my laundry done and i got rid of some of the sludge in my ChatGPT app, so time to get out of the house and see how much more i cannot accomplish today. BTW for the first time in probably a decade i did not plan a celebration for one of my sponsees. i sent greeting and congrats on another year clean, if he wants to see me, he is going to have to ask, as i no longer care-take the men that call me their sponsor. i care for them and will show up when asked, but finally i am placing a boundary about my initiative.
as i consider that the path to accepting myself, runs through accepting others, i see that the action part is suspending my internal dialogue. of course the judgement machine is one of those habitual behaviors that i am finding hard to discard. decades of protecting myself by being the first to judge, by evaluating their words and deeds, is a huge chunk of inertia to overcome. the good news is, it seems that this set of steps seems to be giving m,e a way to break out into a new set of behaviors. as i look at the sparseness of my resentment list, i am mildly surprised and certainly pleased as to the nature of my resentments: MAGAts and their politicians seem to be the bulk of them and i am not quite sure what my part is in those, after all, i voted anti-MAGAt down my entire ballot. any way, it is time to get rolling on down the road for an afternoon of doing as little as possible. life in my skin is pretty good today, i got a run in, i got my laundry done and i got rid of some of the sludge in my ChatGPT app, so time to get out of the house and see how much more i cannot accomplish today. BTW for the first time in probably a decade i did not plan a celebration for one of my sponsees. i sent greeting and congrats on another year clean, if he wants to see me, he is going to have to ask, as i no longer care-take the men that call me their sponsor. i care for them and will show up when asked, but finally i am placing a boundary about my initiative.
∞ DT ∞