Some memes

spirituality in action. HMMMMM, this is not a notion i often think about. perhaps the third time down this path will be the charm. i am at a loss why this topic would be such a challenge for me, as i have been in service at various levels of the service structure from the time time i actually came to recovery. any service i did while i was merely abstinent was all about looking good. even the service i did in those early days of recovery, certainly had huge chunks of ego involved in it. the only spiritual principle i practiced in those days was bolstering my self-esteem through the approval of my peers.
i would like to say that i serve out of spiritual principles today, and for the most part that is true. what i lacked in self-esteem and self-respect across the course of my recovery in no longer part of my “DNA” as it were. after my last FIFTH STEP and in this phase of daily maintenance i have found that i no longer “need” the approval of others to feel whole. as my sponsorship relationships undergo a huge transformation, i know that just for today, i can serve those men without making it all about me.

∞ DT ∞