โ it is odd that i should come into recovery thinking... โ
Posted: Tue, Aug 15, 2006 08:36:32 AM
...that i will feel wonderful right away or no longer have any difficulty handling the twists and turns of life.
after all, i should be better than that by now!
such a familiar refrain for me and one that is especially apropos, as i am approaching the anniversary of my clean date. so once again i have to surrender to the fact that i am powerless over the pace of my recovery and i hate being reminded that i have to surrender, there is something i do have power over and that is the footwork surrounding my recovery. i wrote on my current step yesterday and i felt much better after doing so, you know that calm certainty that everything will be all right, no matter what!
and today even though it feels that Rome is burning down around me, i know that i am doing the best i can and GOD is working to repair the damage that was done by me over the course of my active addiction. that period of time extended almost twenty-six years and to think in a mere nine years i could be restored to my pristine state is yet another symptom of the disease of addiction, after all i want what i want and i want it yesterday!
so what do i think about the reading this morning? well for one it does apply to me and it is a wonderful reminder that life is full of twists and turns that need to dealt with the best i can right now. so off to call the addict i call everyday and practice a bit of responsibility.
after all, i should be better than that by now!
such a familiar refrain for me and one that is especially apropos, as i am approaching the anniversary of my clean date. so once again i have to surrender to the fact that i am powerless over the pace of my recovery and i hate being reminded that i have to surrender, there is something i do have power over and that is the footwork surrounding my recovery. i wrote on my current step yesterday and i felt much better after doing so, you know that calm certainty that everything will be all right, no matter what!
and today even though it feels that Rome is burning down around me, i know that i am doing the best i can and GOD is working to repair the damage that was done by me over the course of my active addiction. that period of time extended almost twenty-six years and to think in a mere nine years i could be restored to my pristine state is yet another symptom of the disease of addiction, after all i want what i want and i want it yesterday!
so what do i think about the reading this morning? well for one it does apply to me and it is a wonderful reminder that life is full of twists and turns that need to dealt with the best i can right now. so off to call the addict i call everyday and practice a bit of responsibility.
∞ DT ∞