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Sat, Aug 15, 2015 10:20:04 AM
℘ over time, ℘
posted: Sat, Aug 15, 2015 10:20:04 AM
not overnight.
so i read the wrong JFT this morning, it happens, even the great and powerful Don, can be a just for tomorrow guy every now and again. what i heard then and what i herd now, as i step back into the here and now, are two entirely different notions,o you all get the joy of reading what i write without my normal period of listening, off the cuff as it is.
in this official crazy season, as i happen to call the daze before my annual clean date, i am struck daily by fits of comparing who i was and who i am going to be with who i am today. the irony here is: that i do NOT know who i will be, even the ELEVENTH STEP says, that our own true will for ourselves is but a glimpse…
in that same vein, reading the just for tomorrow, fits that theme to a tee. yes i wish i could be more social, and flow through social situations with a grace that i still do not possess. HOWEVER, looking back at where i came from, i have mad enormous strides in that area of my life, only because i have worked steps and stuck around, for more than a few revolutions around the sun. i will not say something ridiculous such as i have given it “110%” as there really is nothing more than 100% and those who spout that off and just showing their sheeple like ignorance, as it is no different than ”déjà vu, all over again.” oxymoronic and not even ironic.
anyhow, i have digress, so looking at my place on my recovery journey, whether or not i have given it my best effort, day in and day out, is often where i go in my crazy season. today, well today, i am way out of town for a family function and it appears in my dilly-dallying to get here yesterday, i missed out on some juicy bits of family drama.of well, there is a part of me that wants to know and a larger part of me that woke up this morning not caring about what happened yesterday afternoon, between my elders. what i do know is that it is time to head on over to the breakfast nook, see what they are up to today and move along, even if i am not as well as i think i want to be. it is a great day to be clean.
so i read the wrong JFT this morning, it happens, even the great and powerful Don, can be a just for tomorrow guy every now and again. what i heard then and what i herd now, as i step back into the here and now, are two entirely different notions,o you all get the joy of reading what i write without my normal period of listening, off the cuff as it is.
in this official crazy season, as i happen to call the daze before my annual clean date, i am struck daily by fits of comparing who i was and who i am going to be with who i am today. the irony here is: that i do NOT know who i will be, even the ELEVENTH STEP says, that our own true will for ourselves is but a glimpse…
in that same vein, reading the just for tomorrow, fits that theme to a tee. yes i wish i could be more social, and flow through social situations with a grace that i still do not possess. HOWEVER, looking back at where i came from, i have mad enormous strides in that area of my life, only because i have worked steps and stuck around, for more than a few revolutions around the sun. i will not say something ridiculous such as i have given it “110%” as there really is nothing more than 100% and those who spout that off and just showing their sheeple like ignorance, as it is no different than ”déjà vu, all over again.” oxymoronic and not even ironic.
anyhow, i have digress, so looking at my place on my recovery journey, whether or not i have given it my best effort, day in and day out, is often where i go in my crazy season. today, well today, i am way out of town for a family function and it appears in my dilly-dallying to get here yesterday, i missed out on some juicy bits of family drama.of well, there is a part of me that wants to know and a larger part of me that woke up this morning not caring about what happened yesterday afternoon, between my elders. what i do know is that it is time to head on over to the breakfast nook, see what they are up to today and move along, even if i am not as well as i think i want to be. it is a great day to be clean.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
1) The partial becomes complete; the crooked, straight; the empty,
full; the worn out, new. He whose (desires) are few gets them; he
whose (desires) are many goes astray.