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Posted: Wed, May 7, 2025 06:52:10 AM
of experience, strength, and hope are available to me, in the loving and caring fellowship, in which i make my home. my source material refers to a state of being that happen between Steps ONE and TWO, specifically, if i am powerless over addiction, what hope is there for me to get clean, stay clean and find a new manner of living? that void, for me anyhow, has been filled with what i call the POWER that fuels my recovery. what that POWER is or is not, no longer concerns me. what i know is that i am powerless over addiction and i require something from outside of me to live in a state of active recovery.
what i heard when i listened this morning, is that same POWER could provide me the relief i am seeking from the inanity that consumes me on a daily basis. if someone gets in my way, or behaves in a manner unacceptable to me, then i must throw a quick judgement and cast that person in a negative light. the nature of this insanity is a return to the binary world that i once inhabited and wrote about yesterday. i see that slippery slope ahead and on my own power can do little or nothing to avoid it, despite the illusion of control i believe i have. even with a minute clean, it seems easier to surrender and accept that is who i am, ,rather than aspiring to be something more, if i choose to allow that POWER to care for my will and my life.
like the troll battle i am in on Twitter, i can continue to bang my head against this wall, or i can just walk away and do the next “right” thing. right here and right now, it is getting in my car, driving to the Rec Center and getting a workout under my sneakers. i know that stepping out into the real world, may not bring the sort of interactions i “like,” but that is the nature of reality and unlike my troll, i have a better grasp on what is, what was and a few hints of what may be, if i allow myself to listen for the guidance of the POWER that fuels my recovery,m just for today.
what i heard when i listened this morning, is that same POWER could provide me the relief i am seeking from the inanity that consumes me on a daily basis. if someone gets in my way, or behaves in a manner unacceptable to me, then i must throw a quick judgement and cast that person in a negative light. the nature of this insanity is a return to the binary world that i once inhabited and wrote about yesterday. i see that slippery slope ahead and on my own power can do little or nothing to avoid it, despite the illusion of control i believe i have. even with a minute clean, it seems easier to surrender and accept that is who i am, ,rather than aspiring to be something more, if i choose to allow that POWER to care for my will and my life.
like the troll battle i am in on Twitter, i can continue to bang my head against this wall, or i can just walk away and do the next “right” thing. right here and right now, it is getting in my car, driving to the Rec Center and getting a workout under my sneakers. i know that stepping out into the real world, may not bring the sort of interactions i “like,” but that is the nature of reality and unlike my troll, i have a better grasp on what is, what was and a few hints of what may be, if i allow myself to listen for the guidance of the POWER that fuels my recovery,m just for today.
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