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Tue, May 1, 2007 11:49:29 AM


∞ service is something that is my unique gift,something that no one can take away from me. ∞
posted: Tue, May 1, 2007 11:49:29 AM

 

through service, i started on the sometimes long road back to becoming a productive member of society.
so i wish i could say that i am posting so late because i have quietly pondering the message in the reading today for all of these many hours. the actual truth is that i have been neglecting what i need to do and been working like a mad man since i first sat up and faced the world this morning. just that time of month i guess! :)
so now that i am stealing a moment to get back in touch with how i am doing this morning or afternoon which ever the case may be, i get to think about the gift of service to the fellowship that has given me this new life.
it is an interesting thought that i could be of service just by showing up and sharing at a meeting. in fact that idea strikes me as so novel, i have probably written about it before. so the second thought that pops into my pea-sized brain today is that self-esteem being built by the same sort of service. that too is a topic that i may have written about in the past, but there is a chord resonating in me when i contemplate that particular thought so i guess i will run with it. one of the cliché, i have heard thrown around is a metaphor about peering up to see a snake’s belly. so suffice it to say that i had low self-esteem when i walked into the rooms. i acted as if i had a great opinion of myself and let everyone know exactly how great i was, over and over and over again. i never considered that i was worthless in my own mind, and it was the members in the rooms in my early days that eased me into the kind of service only a thirty day wonder could provide, not much except talking to other members who came after me, making coffee, and printing calenders. even that little bit of service bolstered my self-image, because for once i was contributing something instead of taking everything i could. service has become an integral part of my daily recovery and maybe even this little web page is providing a service for someone. i write it however because it is a good thing for me to do! after all it is all about me, even to this day!

∞ DT ∞

 

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∞ self-esteem through being of service ∞ 178 words ➥ Monday, May 1, 2006 by: donnot
∞ i have heard many members say that they began to develop self-esteem … 299 words ➥ Thursday, May 1, 2008 by: donnot
α when i arrived in this fellowship, i had very little self-worth left to salvage ω 757 words ➥ Friday, May 1, 2009 by: donnot
‰ being involved in service can make one worthwhile ‰ 637 words ➥ Sunday, May 1, 2011 by: donnot
♦ i  did NOT have a lot of experience, strength, or hope to share at thirty days clean ♦  536 words ➥ Tuesday, May 1, 2012 by: donnot
∼ through service, i started on the long road ∼ 439 words ➥ Wednesday, May 1, 2013 by: donnot
ª the very newest member, the one with only the desire to stop using ª 759 words ➥ Thursday, May 1, 2014 by: donnot
∫ can hardly imagine anyone ∫ 600 words ➥ Friday, May 1, 2015 by: donnot
⊢ when i begin ⊣ 834 words ➥ Sunday, May 1, 2016 by: donnot
✯ i give,  ✯ 834 words ➥ Monday, May 1, 2017 by: donnot
🚧 my long road 🚪 511 words ➥ Tuesday, May 1, 2018 by: donnot
🔮 involved in service 🔮 332 words ➥ Wednesday, May 1, 2019 by: donnot
🌫 feeling worthwhile 🌫 561 words ➥ Friday, May 1, 2020 by: donnot
🤐 experience, 🤔 181 words ➥ Saturday, May 1, 2021 by: donnot
👐 when i arrived 👌 545 words ➥ Sunday, May 1, 2022 by: donnot
🌟 service 🌟 558 words ➥ Monday, May 1, 2023 by: donnot
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯

THE TAO TEH KING, OR THE TAO AND ITS CHARACTERISTICS
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge

Book 1

The valley spirit dies not, aye the same;
The female mystery thus do we name.
Its gate, from which at first they issued forth,
Is called the root from which grew heaven and earth.
Long and unbroken does its power remain,
Used gently, and without the touch of pain.