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Tue, Jul 17, 2007 09:37:59 AM
∞ i may see using dreams as gifts from my Higher Power, vividly reminding me of the insanity of active addiction ∞
posted: Tue, Jul 17, 2007 09:37:59 AM
and encouraging me to strengthen my recovery. seen in that light, i can be grateful for using dreams.
although it has been a few days since my last using dream, i still find them a bit disturbing, well more than disturbing, for me i start to immediately start to think that i am doing something wrong in my program. when i get up in the morning, i start to scrutinize my behaviors and actions, especially about whether i am doing what i am supposed to be doing in regards to step work, meetings, working with others and sharing at meetings. what i generally discover is that i am not doing something wrong, in a conscious manner. however i find that i have usually withdrawn from those who have been a part of my recovery. hiding what is going on, and concentrating on appearances.
my course of action to prevent a using dream tonight? finish my assignment, call my sponsor and let others know what is going on.
although it has been a few days since my last using dream, i still find them a bit disturbing, well more than disturbing, for me i start to immediately start to think that i am doing something wrong in my program. when i get up in the morning, i start to scrutinize my behaviors and actions, especially about whether i am doing what i am supposed to be doing in regards to step work, meetings, working with others and sharing at meetings. what i generally discover is that i am not doing something wrong, in a conscious manner. however i find that i have usually withdrawn from those who have been a part of my recovery. hiding what is going on, and concentrating on appearances.
my course of action to prevent a using dream tonight? finish my assignment, call my sponsor and let others know what is going on.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
4) Therefore the sage desires what (other men) do not desire, and
does not prize things difficult to get; he learns what (other men)
do not learn, and turns back to what the multitude of men have passed
by. Thus he helps the natural development of all things, and does
not dare to act (with an ulterior purpose of his own).