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Sat, Jul 28, 2007 07:52:32 AM
μ i may imagine that if no one knows about my imperfections, μ
posted: Sat, Jul 28, 2007 07:52:32 AM
those imperfections will cease to exist. this is the point where our relationships stop.
these days i am striving for greater equality in my relationships, and a si commented to the addict i crossed the state with yesterday, i hold my cards very close to my chest. this has been revealed over and over and over and over again to me, and especially recently as i completed my last sixth assignment. two that made my list were irrational fear and low self-worth. these little pieces of defective character create the situation where i am only safe, if i maintain appearances. after all, if i do not reveal how i really am feeling on the inside, or reveal how flawed i am, you cannot hurt me. and so it goes, i draw back, while wanting more and end-up in the same situation, lonely and isolated.
so what action will i take today? well for one, i will reveal something to my friends and peers that i think i have been good at hiding. after all, i do love to take a risk or three every day, and this sort of risk is the scariest type for me.
so the time has come to get ready or the day’s activities and see what happens.
these days i am striving for greater equality in my relationships, and a si commented to the addict i crossed the state with yesterday, i hold my cards very close to my chest. this has been revealed over and over and over and over again to me, and especially recently as i completed my last sixth assignment. two that made my list were irrational fear and low self-worth. these little pieces of defective character create the situation where i am only safe, if i maintain appearances. after all, if i do not reveal how i really am feeling on the inside, or reveal how flawed i am, you cannot hurt me. and so it goes, i draw back, while wanting more and end-up in the same situation, lonely and isolated.
so what action will i take today? well for one, i will reveal something to my friends and peers that i think i have been good at hiding. after all, i do love to take a risk or three every day, and this sort of risk is the scariest type for me.
so the time has come to get ready or the day’s activities and see what happens.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
1) Therefore all in the world delight to exalt him and do not weary
of him. Because he does not strive, no one finds it possible to strive
with him.