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Fri, Apr 25, 2008 09:46:19 AM
μ i need never hide from reality by using drugs again, for the unity with other recovering addicts gives me strength. μ
posted: Fri, Apr 25, 2008 09:46:19 AM
today, the support, the care, and the empathy of recovery gives me a clean, clear window through which to view, experience, and appreciate reality as it is. although for me, reality sort of sucks this morning. i have to travel while being sick. one of my servers is down, i have projects that i will not finish, and i am in the middle of a personality conflict that really is not my stuff…
so wah -- wah -- wah
what is there to do? well for one, i do not think getting high will fix anything at all, although it would keep me fro0m traveling today, as a relapse is instant grounds for removal from my service position. however tempting the nuclear option may seem, it is not one i choose today. the cold will pass, the personality conflict will resolve itself, and my server will come back again as i have already submitted a trouble ticket. life may not be exactly like i want it to be at this very second, but it has been my experience that if i hang out long enough, it does work out the way it is supposed to.
so off to the store to fill my gas tank so i save five or six dollars before gas goes up again. drink some water, take some more ibuprofen and get what i can get done done!
sitting here whining about it will accomplish very little, and something i have learned in the fellowship, is these are really luxury bitches and not anything else. when i get in a spot where i just want to stay in self-pity, i really need to take of my sh!t colored glasses and see life and recovery for what it really is. what is that, i hear you ask. well for one, life is a gift that i need to cherish today. recovery gives me the ability to cherish, nourish this gift. the combination of this new way of living and the support of my fellow members gives me the opportunity to thrive!
so off to the real world and take care of the few errands i need to run before jetting away this afternoon.
so wah -- wah -- wah
what is there to do? well for one, i do not think getting high will fix anything at all, although it would keep me fro0m traveling today, as a relapse is instant grounds for removal from my service position. however tempting the nuclear option may seem, it is not one i choose today. the cold will pass, the personality conflict will resolve itself, and my server will come back again as i have already submitted a trouble ticket. life may not be exactly like i want it to be at this very second, but it has been my experience that if i hang out long enough, it does work out the way it is supposed to.
so off to the store to fill my gas tank so i save five or six dollars before gas goes up again. drink some water, take some more ibuprofen and get what i can get done done!
sitting here whining about it will accomplish very little, and something i have learned in the fellowship, is these are really luxury bitches and not anything else. when i get in a spot where i just want to stay in self-pity, i really need to take of my sh!t colored glasses and see life and recovery for what it really is. what is that, i hear you ask. well for one, life is a gift that i need to cherish today. recovery gives me the ability to cherish, nourish this gift. the combination of this new way of living and the support of my fellow members gives me the opportunity to thrive!
so off to the real world and take care of the few errands i need to run before jetting away this afternoon.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
3) The people make light of dying because of the greatness of their
labours in seeking for the means of living. It is this which makes
them think light of dying. Thus it is that to leave the subject of
living altogether out of view is better than to set a high value on
it.