Some memes

in faith is giving up the illusion of control. it is more than ironic that even with a minute clean, one might come to believe that one has already come to a place where i live in a state of complete and utter FAITH, that i will get what i need. after all, i should be better than that by now! 😉 ah, the toils and tribulations of life in recovery and coming to accept that being restored to sanity is a process and sanity, in and of itself is so freaking relative, that i may always be on that journey.
letting go of outcomes, in any sense of the word is not something that comes easy for me. oh, i act as if i am not attempting to control the end product by saying that i am just doing the “footwork” to foster my plans, when in reality i may be doing a little bit more that that. 😈 this morning, as i sat, i kept coming back to the notion that i hear many of my peers express about how life on its own terms, is a test from their HIGHER POWER. at times, it certainly feels that way to me. when i get into that place, i need to look at what i am doing and why forcing an outcome is so important to me. the whole GOD's will or mine dichotomy springing into action.
anyhow, i have to run to my home group. it is a great day to be clean and on this side of the grass. even though i am not marching on No KINGS Day, i am certainly going to keep doing my part to fuel the resistance. life in my skin, as challenging as my future may look right now, is not all that bad. all i have to do is breathe and pay attention to what is happening around me.

∞ DT ∞