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and practicing the principles of the program. so simplifying my complicated life through a program that is simple, sounds like an easy solution. well simple as it is, i have found it far from easy. as i stay clean and learn to live a vital program of recovery, it has become easier. i know that i am not any simpler than when i walked into the rooms, all those days ago. if one were to examine my life today compared to my life back then, one would have to conclude that recovery has made my life much more complicated. after all, back in the day all i had in my life was a very few friends, a family that i kept at arm's length, a job that i could barely do, a rented room, and the NEED to use all the time. today i have a career i love, a mortgaged house, a woman with whom i share my life, many friends, a loving family that i am now a real part of and a rich set of relationships from the fellowship that i landed in. all of those things demand parts of me, and all of them need to be juggled to allow myself enough time for me to relax and take care of me. with all of that going on, it is hard to see that this complicated person has a life that is simple today. on the face of it, that would be the conclusion one could reach, what i have discovered as the steps have worked their magic upon me, is that even with all of that going on, my decision-making process, as well as how i behave when no one is looking has become simpler and yes even easier. the program has given me the means of filtering all of that stuff and bringing it down to the lowest common denominator, ME!
as i get closer to my vision of the man i have always wanted to be, the choices i make come from my ability to choose a spiritual path. when i am on the horns of a dilemma, i have the experience of the members of the fellowship to help me sort out what is the best path for me. best of all, i have developed a relationship with a POWER that is not only greater than i am, BUT is greater than my addiction. that POWER provides me the means to simplify, rather than complicate my life. when i choose to align my will and desires to the will of that loving, caring POWER.
anyhow, my phone is dying, i cannot get a replacement for 7 to 10 business days, but life is good. i can still check e-mail, make calls and use the apps i have, so life without blue tooth is my fate for the next few weeks.
i can live with that and i will accept that is what will be. time to get back to the grind of pumping out some code, although a cigar on the back porch feels like the next right thing to do.

∞ DT ∞