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this morning i am feeling somewhere between great and crummy. once more a section in the current step i am writing has kicked my butt. the daily meditation however assures me that i am on the right path. you know "... i will work my next step." this is little consolation for me, but i do know that i am progressing in a direction that will lead me to become the person i was meant to be. this means that i have to cooperate with the process and not fight it. this means that i have to persevere and continue to do what is front of me, regardless of how i think it will make me feel. and for me right here, right now, it means that i have to continue writing my first step out. i have yet to dies of a feeling and i have yet to died from step work, even though lately there are days when i think dieing may be preferable to feeling. but i will not do anything to drastic today. but i will call some friends and fellow travelers and let them know that i have been better, because that is what i NEED to do to stay clean today.
∞ DT ∞