♠ i want to keep in touch with the way i feel ♠
Posted: Wed, Jan 18, 2012 06:49:21 AM
in living this life i have been given.
well as i wrap things up to head on down to Denver this windy morning, i have the opportunity to spend a few minutes and actually write before i travel. as much as i hate to drive through traffic, today, my responsibilities in the afternoon preclude a bus ride. if i ever figure out a way to take the bus in the morning and drive my car home in the afternoon, i let you all know, as i am certain it will be a billion dollar industry. in the mean time, due to living in the real world, i do what i must do.
a daily inventory, yes i get it, i do it and i certainly can FEEL the benefits of being habituated to it, and do not get why anyone would stop doing it for any reason, justifiable or not. i know why it did not stick on my first trip through the steps, and although i do it with religious fervor, i will not proselytize to the unwashed masses about why they should do with similar zeal and regularity.
what do i get out of it? well, i get to fall asleep very quickly most nights, as i have already dealt with almost all those issues that may keep me up, worrying and scurrying to find solutions. i have resolved those things i did wrong, looked at what has been successful and started the letting go process of those things and ideas that i tend to latch on to. i can lay my head down ion my pillow at peace, knowing that what i did wrong will be corrected, what i did right will be cataloged for further inclusion in my daily life and that i have done my best to live a program of active recovery. there is a positive feedback cycle here. the more regular i am with my daily inventory, as in EVERY NIGHT. the better i feel about myself and my recovery. the better i feel about myself and my recovery, the more DESIRE i have to do a formal daily inventory, and on and on.
it is a great day to be clean and time has come to jump into the shower and get on down the road. yes, i will do my inventory, simple as it is, again tonight, because the results of doing so, show up in all phases of my life.
well as i wrap things up to head on down to Denver this windy morning, i have the opportunity to spend a few minutes and actually write before i travel. as much as i hate to drive through traffic, today, my responsibilities in the afternoon preclude a bus ride. if i ever figure out a way to take the bus in the morning and drive my car home in the afternoon, i let you all know, as i am certain it will be a billion dollar industry. in the mean time, due to living in the real world, i do what i must do.
a daily inventory, yes i get it, i do it and i certainly can FEEL the benefits of being habituated to it, and do not get why anyone would stop doing it for any reason, justifiable or not. i know why it did not stick on my first trip through the steps, and although i do it with religious fervor, i will not proselytize to the unwashed masses about why they should do with similar zeal and regularity.
what do i get out of it? well, i get to fall asleep very quickly most nights, as i have already dealt with almost all those issues that may keep me up, worrying and scurrying to find solutions. i have resolved those things i did wrong, looked at what has been successful and started the letting go process of those things and ideas that i tend to latch on to. i can lay my head down ion my pillow at peace, knowing that what i did wrong will be corrected, what i did right will be cataloged for further inclusion in my daily life and that i have done my best to live a program of active recovery. there is a positive feedback cycle here. the more regular i am with my daily inventory, as in EVERY NIGHT. the better i feel about myself and my recovery. the better i feel about myself and my recovery, the more DESIRE i have to do a formal daily inventory, and on and on.
it is a great day to be clean and time has come to jump into the shower and get on down the road. yes, i will do my inventory, simple as it is, again tonight, because the results of doing so, show up in all phases of my life.
∞ DT ∞