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today, i will speak and act in a positive manner. so i really do not know where this is going this morning, it is being squeezed in between a whole bunch of stuff because i overslept for the first time in almost a year. oh well so it goes, it MUST HAVE BEEN THE FAULT OF ALL OF THOSE…
seriously though, there is a part of this reading that does not sit well with me. it almost seems to imply, that i act in a positive manner no matter what is happening in ,my life, or how i am feeling. the whole life is a bowl of cherries susie sunshine gig, which really does not suit me very well, and feels false and dishonest. i do understand what the reading is saying, it is not saying pretend that i am happy, or even that i accept all that is going on my life. it does not say always look on the bright side of life, or spin the events in one way or another. what it does say, is that when i am sharing, do my needs outweigh the need of others? am i just sharing at someone, or am i really sharing what is in my heart? the between the lines crap, that i think i can imply, is just that, crap. i can live my life in a positive manner, without being of feeling something i am not, and that is my goal for today.
this is on heck of a busy day,. so perhaps i will get a chance to update as the day goes on, if not, it is still a great day to be on this side of the dirt and clean.

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anyhow, as the day winds down, i feel more positive than i did this morning, in a whole bnunch of ways. my inerview seemd eot go well, i got more than a clue on how dto do the next task at work and guess what i am okay, that even though things may have looked grim over the course of the past 11 hours. i am more confident now that i can live and act in a positive manner. however, there is a meeting to go to, errands to run, time at the cigar shop and a bit more work all before i hit the pillow this evening, so if i was a pessimist or even the least bit cynical, i could say, there are lots of ways to turn me back to the dark side of negativity.
so now that i am on this sidwe of my day, i GET what the reading was trying to tell me. i need not be a spin-meister nor do i hav e to iganore the trials and tribulations in my life. i do NOT need to try and see the silver lining or vikwew the glass as half em pty or half full. what i need to see, that life is a combination of all sort of events and decisons, some i think are good and others, well not so good, to stick with the theme i am developing. as tired as i am right now, jumpimng down someone@#39;s throat because they are complaining that no one is volunteering to provide a service for them, need not be part of my agenda. i can and will be positive and when i cannot be, well i will do my best not to be unpleasant in my words and actions, as that is how i desire to be treated.
so on that note, i think i will head on out and finish what i wanted to get done today.