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Sun, Jul 10, 2005 08:04:50 AM
δ living in a positive manner δ
posted: Sun, Jul 10, 2005 08:04:50 AM
this morning i am having trouble finding a positive manner of speakeing and acting. a friend is dieing and i just want to ignore him and let him go away. but my dang spiritual principles keep getting in the way.
i know i would regret missing the opportunity to say good-bye, especially since the decison not to is mine and mine alone.
i also know i would beat myself up for not being present for one last time for my friend.
i also am feeling very exposed today. i want to be alone and noone is allowing me to be. again once more i see the monstor of unworthiness raising its ugly head.
the most positive thing is that i DO NOT WANT TO USE! i will get through this process and i will be able to grow as a result.
∞ DT ∞
i know i would regret missing the opportunity to say good-bye, especially since the decison not to is mine and mine alone.
i also know i would beat myself up for not being present for one last time for my friend.
i also am feeling very exposed today. i want to be alone and noone is allowing me to be. again once more i see the monstor of unworthiness raising its ugly head.
the most positive thing is that i DO NOT WANT TO USE! i will get through this process and i will be able to grow as a result.
∞ DT ∞
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
1) The Tao that can be trodden is not the enduring and unchanging
Tao. The name that can be named is not the enduring and unchanging
name.