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Sun, Jul 24, 2005 09:54:41 AM
α hiding behind the masks ω
posted: Sun, Jul 24, 2005 09:54:41 AM
here i am doing service, trying to figure out who i really am. am i really showing my real face or am i just people pleasing?
i did not really think that i would be writing this today, so i thought i could skate through today without thinking too much about this topic.
but alas, i got on-line and my own commitment to writing this screamed louder than my disease about ignoring my thoughts.
so i do understand about hiding behind a façade so no one could ever see who i was and as a result could hurt me. these days i am not any more comfortable about being open with who i am, to every one i happen to run across in my daily life, but i am learning that although i am not comfortable with being open, i do see the benefit in all of my relationships.
so am i better at being open? YES! am i throwing away my masks?? MOST OF THEM!! will i continue to make progress in showing who i am, instead of showing who i want to be?? YES!
each day i get a bit better and more comfortable being and showing who i am and as a result am building my self-esteem day by day.
∞ DT ∞
i did not really think that i would be writing this today, so i thought i could skate through today without thinking too much about this topic.
but alas, i got on-line and my own commitment to writing this screamed louder than my disease about ignoring my thoughts.
so i do understand about hiding behind a façade so no one could ever see who i was and as a result could hurt me. these days i am not any more comfortable about being open with who i am, to every one i happen to run across in my daily life, but i am learning that although i am not comfortable with being open, i do see the benefit in all of my relationships.
so am i better at being open? YES! am i throwing away my masks?? MOST OF THEM!! will i continue to make progress in showing who i am, instead of showing who i want to be?? YES!
each day i get a bit better and more comfortable being and showing who i am and as a result am building my self-esteem day by day.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
3) Therefore he who would administer the kingdom, honouring it as
he honours his own person, may be employed to govern it, and he who
would administer it with the love which he bears to his own person
may be entrusted with it.