โ up or down โ
Posted: Sun, Aug 16, 2015 04:19:43 PM
it has been quite journey since i read this reading this morning. nine hours, give or take, 675 miles, and other people driving, getting in my way, on my mission to get home. well actually they were not in my way for a change. yes, for a change, i was able to go with the flow, as it was and not get my panties in a bun, over how this a$$hole or that was driving. great work when i can do it, BUT what it is symptomatic of, is that for whatever reason, i was able to stay in a spiritual place, even in my least spiritual mode: ”ON A MISSION DRIVING” not one person got the middle finger salute or mean-mugged as i zoomed past them, and for me, that is truly amazing.
yes, i did ELEVENTH STEP this two days in a row, and even so, what i feel today, is a whole lot different than what i felt yesterday in the morning. before i rushed out at zero dark thirty to accomplish my mission of beating the weekend warriors back to Colorado, what i heard was a bit of an inventory, was to which way my recovery is going, up or down. what i have discovered over the course of today, is a bit of evidence that i am on the up side, at least just for today. what can and has been a total stress bucket of an activity, was not too bad. the roads were dry, the weather cool and partly cloudy and i was present for the drive. i was not replaying what happened with my family over the weekend, and if i had, it would have been very brief, as that was a very enjoyable day, sandwiched between two long ass drives. i was not thinking about the men i sponsor, even though one of them asked for and could receive my undivided attention for a slice of time. i lat go of my job, the tasks i have yet to accomplish today and the rest of the world and focused on the drive out of the smoky Montana valleys and into the stormy Colorado, and enjoyed a cigar or three as i just let the miles roll by.
as i sit here, in a moment of quite interlude before running off and putting out a fire, ai am quite certain, that no matter what, everything is as it should be, regardless of the state it is in. maybe, i will even make the meeting this evening, one never knows.
anyhow, thank you family for a wonderful weekend and thanks to the POWER that fuels my recovery, for giving me everything i needed today.
yes, i did ELEVENTH STEP this two days in a row, and even so, what i feel today, is a whole lot different than what i felt yesterday in the morning. before i rushed out at zero dark thirty to accomplish my mission of beating the weekend warriors back to Colorado, what i heard was a bit of an inventory, was to which way my recovery is going, up or down. what i have discovered over the course of today, is a bit of evidence that i am on the up side, at least just for today. what can and has been a total stress bucket of an activity, was not too bad. the roads were dry, the weather cool and partly cloudy and i was present for the drive. i was not replaying what happened with my family over the weekend, and if i had, it would have been very brief, as that was a very enjoyable day, sandwiched between two long ass drives. i was not thinking about the men i sponsor, even though one of them asked for and could receive my undivided attention for a slice of time. i lat go of my job, the tasks i have yet to accomplish today and the rest of the world and focused on the drive out of the smoky Montana valleys and into the stormy Colorado, and enjoyed a cigar or three as i just let the miles roll by.
as i sit here, in a moment of quite interlude before running off and putting out a fire, ai am quite certain, that no matter what, everything is as it should be, regardless of the state it is in. maybe, i will even make the meeting this evening, one never knows.
anyhow, thank you family for a wonderful weekend and thanks to the POWER that fuels my recovery, for giving me everything i needed today.
∞ DT ∞