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Thu, Sep 20, 2018 10:00:04 AM
🗬 at least i am 🗭
posted: Thu, Sep 20, 2018 10:00:04 AM
familiar with the mess i happen to be in right now, allowing change is spooky, as the unknown always drives me bat-shit crazy. as i sit here this morning trying to figure out who i NEED to be today, what i keep coming to is just be myself and allow the world to come to me today.
after a walk to clear my head and become better equipped to handle to world as it is today, things are not moving as i would like them to move. fighting with Mexico about their account being “locked” and trying to get my money across the border has become a full-time job. the stress with dealing with crap is distracting me from work and seriously working over my serenity, so now i wait for my helper to get the next attempt off and if it fails i will be making a trip to Mexico, to claim my funds. right here and right now? well time to breathe and get some more steps in, as in walking.
my greatest FEAR coming out of STEP TWO is not being able to see what the process will change me into. i know that the story i tell myself is a lie, but is it is so familiar, that letting go of it, will be a bit difficult. time to go and be powerless one more time and see waht the day ends up bringing to my doorstep.
after a walk to clear my head and become better equipped to handle to world as it is today, things are not moving as i would like them to move. fighting with Mexico about their account being “locked” and trying to get my money across the border has become a full-time job. the stress with dealing with crap is distracting me from work and seriously working over my serenity, so now i wait for my helper to get the next attempt off and if it fails i will be making a trip to Mexico, to claim my funds. right here and right now? well time to breathe and get some more steps in, as in walking.
my greatest FEAR coming out of STEP TWO is not being able to see what the process will change me into. i know that the story i tell myself is a lie, but is it is so familiar, that letting go of it, will be a bit difficult. time to go and be powerless one more time and see waht the day ends up bringing to my doorstep.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
Another Look!
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 1
2) Therefore the sage, in the exercise of his government, empties
their minds, fills their bellies, weakens their wills, and strengthens
their bones.