โ sometimes i do things for the wrong reasons โ
Posted: Sat, Jun 10, 2006 08:27:01 AM
and boy does it suck when i finally figure it out.
i have been examining several of my behaviors within more than one or two of my relationships lately, and am starting to wonder exactly what are my motives in behaving in this manner. the first thing that comes to mind is that i want to help them grow, to move beyond the rut they seem to be stuck in, and if i left it at that i could continue down the path and not worry. however, in one particular relationship this is beginning to look like i am reacting out fear, uncertainty and doubt. things are changing within the lives of all those around me and i am afraid that the changes will result in differences that are unacceptable to me, so i act as if nothing is happening, nothing from my side of the relationship needs to change and just withdraw in petulant silence.
well the time has come to let go of all my expectations and actually see what my motives are in all the relationships i participate in and behave in a more spiritual manner. life is far too short, to cut myself off from anyone, anymore, i have been down that road and all it led to was needing to have more and more and more. today i want to grow and see what i can truly become if i honestly examine my motive and let life happen as it will.
i have been examining several of my behaviors within more than one or two of my relationships lately, and am starting to wonder exactly what are my motives in behaving in this manner. the first thing that comes to mind is that i want to help them grow, to move beyond the rut they seem to be stuck in, and if i left it at that i could continue down the path and not worry. however, in one particular relationship this is beginning to look like i am reacting out fear, uncertainty and doubt. things are changing within the lives of all those around me and i am afraid that the changes will result in differences that are unacceptable to me, so i act as if nothing is happening, nothing from my side of the relationship needs to change and just withdraw in petulant silence.
well the time has come to let go of all my expectations and actually see what my motives are in all the relationships i participate in and behave in a more spiritual manner. life is far too short, to cut myself off from anyone, anymore, i have been down that road and all it led to was needing to have more and more and more. today i want to grow and see what i can truly become if i honestly examine my motive and let life happen as it will.
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