Some memes

of the shortcomings that are still part of addiction, is a part of my daily routine today. right off the bat, i admit that i have character defects that drive my shortcomings. i have been taught and have come to believe that shortcomings are the reactions i have when a character defect is activated. some of it, well most of it is behavior based. one of the most persistent ones is: i felt less than, because i lack self-esteem, so i am going to cut you down to size to feel better about myself. learning how to surrender those came as i learned to respond to my defects, rather than react to them. am i perfect at it? no way, no how! what i am. however, is less abrasive. less fragile and more self-assured than i ever was. i no longer play act at being assured, i just am.
i have to admit i had some fun “Seussifying” my blog yesterday. AI can be a wonderful toy to play with and as i become more proficient at it, i am finding more ways to use it. what i am also uncovering is a creative streak in me, that i always thought i might have, but never really got to apply. i am also seeing that i have a tendency to leave things unfinished and that is a shortcoming that i really do need to surrender. none of my works of fiction are finished. all of them require work. i could say i ran out of time. when the fact is, i got bored with the project and moved on. today, i may not have the opportunity today to work on one of them, but i do see that i need to get back to where i started and finish the polish on three of them and the narrative on the other two. who knows, i just might become a budding novelist, or just another hack playing around. it really does not matter, because just for today, i know i am more than a collection of defects and bad behaviors.

∞ DT ∞