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Sat, Oct 21, 2006 11:02:44 AM
α enjoyment, appreciation, and gratitude for the quality of my life Ω
posted: Sat, Oct 21, 2006 11:02:44 AM
-- these are the results of faith in life itself.
and some days, i lack the faith to feel like i need to move forward, after all, i have needs and desires and what will happen if things just do not work out the way i want. :-((
so reading this little ditty this morning, opened my mind to the possibility that i may not be practicing the principle of FAITH to the best of my ability. and of course this comes down to whether i am living a third step. what the fuck is GOD’s will for me anyhow? i am clueless except that i am pretty sure that staying clean today is part of that.
so how do i let go of my will and actually live the third step?
well something i said last night at the panel i participated, echoes through the nearly empty halls of my psyche -- fake it until i make it! that is not quite satisfactory at this point in my recovery, but some days it has to suffice.
today, however i am willing to look at what i believe, what i want, what i need and separate out all those things for my life today. what is my will today -- to live as best i can in the here and now,plan to be in Cheyenne at 4:30, and make it back to home today. i also can look at all things i am grateful for toady and first off three thousand three hundred and twenty seven days that i have been clean. that little fact is enough to get me through another day.
and some days, i lack the faith to feel like i need to move forward, after all, i have needs and desires and what will happen if things just do not work out the way i want. :-((
so reading this little ditty this morning, opened my mind to the possibility that i may not be practicing the principle of FAITH to the best of my ability. and of course this comes down to whether i am living a third step. what the fuck is GOD’s will for me anyhow? i am clueless except that i am pretty sure that staying clean today is part of that.
so how do i let go of my will and actually live the third step?
well something i said last night at the panel i participated, echoes through the nearly empty halls of my psyche -- fake it until i make it! that is not quite satisfactory at this point in my recovery, but some days it has to suffice.
today, however i am willing to look at what i believe, what i want, what i need and separate out all those things for my life today. what is my will today -- to live as best i can in the here and now,plan to be in Cheyenne at 4:30, and make it back to home today. i also can look at all things i am grateful for toady and first off three thousand three hundred and twenty seven days that i have been clean. that little fact is enough to get me through another day.
∞ DT ∞
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While the author is a member of a 12 Step recovery fellowship, these writings are not intended to endorse or express the published wisdom of any fellowship.
These writings are not meant to be socially or politically correct, and if you take issue with any opinions expressed, please seek the guidance of someone wiser than me.
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☯ The Tao that can be spoken is not the eternal Tao ☯
by Lao-Tse
Translated by James Legge
Book 2
1) He who knows (the Tao) does not (care to) speak (about it); he
who is (ever ready to) speak about it does not know it.