โ my best bet is to put more of my energy into maintaining the foundation of recovery โ
Posted: Tue, Apr 10, 2007 09:07:06 AM
on which my life is built. that foundation makes everything else possible, and it will surely crumble if i get too busy with everything else.
ahhh the reminder that if i am too busy to recover i probably will not. perfect reading on a day like today when absolutely nothing has gone as i planned. the fire truck has finally returned to the station and i am ready to actually start doing what i NEED to do today. anyhow, i did travel to a meeting last night and the topic turned towards dealing with death and grief. i am sure it was due to the recent death of a valued member of the fellowship, nevertheless, i shared about the HOPE that comes out of pain and the miracle that saved my life three years ago. i made a call before stopping at a bar to numb the pain i was feeling on that July evening three years ago, and that decision saved me to recover yet another day. i know now that had i been lazy in maintaining my recovery, the decision to call someone on that night would not have been made and who knows where i would be right now. so i am clean and i am living a program of recovery to the best of my ability today, and i do have a choice to make every single day. will i get to be clean until i die? only if i keep doing what i have been doing, no matter how busy i am, no matter how many demands i have on my time, no matter how successful i appear. all of that will be gone if i decide to pick up and by maintaining my foundation by doing the things that got me clean i can and will recover! so off to meet a few responsibilities and see what the day will bring.
ahhh the reminder that if i am too busy to recover i probably will not. perfect reading on a day like today when absolutely nothing has gone as i planned. the fire truck has finally returned to the station and i am ready to actually start doing what i NEED to do today. anyhow, i did travel to a meeting last night and the topic turned towards dealing with death and grief. i am sure it was due to the recent death of a valued member of the fellowship, nevertheless, i shared about the HOPE that comes out of pain and the miracle that saved my life three years ago. i made a call before stopping at a bar to numb the pain i was feeling on that July evening three years ago, and that decision saved me to recover yet another day. i know now that had i been lazy in maintaining my recovery, the decision to call someone on that night would not have been made and who knows where i would be right now. so i am clean and i am living a program of recovery to the best of my ability today, and i do have a choice to make every single day. will i get to be clean until i die? only if i keep doing what i have been doing, no matter how busy i am, no matter how many demands i have on my time, no matter how successful i appear. all of that will be gone if i decide to pick up and by maintaining my foundation by doing the things that got me clean i can and will recover! so off to meet a few responsibilities and see what the day will bring.
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