โ if i am sincerely willing to accept the responsibilities involved in friendship โ
Posted: Fri, May 18, 2007 08:12:13 AM
and make the amends i owe, those friendships can become stronger and richer than ever.
so i bet you tuned in today expecting me to whine about how i felt after writing my character defect list, well the truth is last night i felt like shit, but this morning the process is starting to kick in so i am not nearly in such a bad spot, a little bleary and worse for wear and tear, but all things considered no bad.
so the saga of my sixth step moves on, and today i get to think about my relationships, specifically those relationships called friendships. honestly, i have yet to learn how to form an large number of casual friendships. for me each and every friend i have is important. since there are few members of humanity i choose to call my friends, my relationships are quite deep and when i step on one of their toes, it generally cuts deep. the reading this morning reminds me that if i want to continue to have friends, and i want those friendships to grow, then i NEED to take responsibility for my part in disagreements or me just plain being a real shit. the responsibility i NEED to take is to acknowledge my part in it, without blame, justifications, rationalizations or obfuscation. there is a step for that, and although the reading speaks about amends it is the tenth step where i find the tools to figure out my part in the whole putrid affair, and figure out what i need to do to correct, repair and amend the relationship.
so off to deal with some issues and let me see if i can get through today without the need to make any amends for my behavior.
so i bet you tuned in today expecting me to whine about how i felt after writing my character defect list, well the truth is last night i felt like shit, but this morning the process is starting to kick in so i am not nearly in such a bad spot, a little bleary and worse for wear and tear, but all things considered no bad.
so the saga of my sixth step moves on, and today i get to think about my relationships, specifically those relationships called friendships. honestly, i have yet to learn how to form an large number of casual friendships. for me each and every friend i have is important. since there are few members of humanity i choose to call my friends, my relationships are quite deep and when i step on one of their toes, it generally cuts deep. the reading this morning reminds me that if i want to continue to have friends, and i want those friendships to grow, then i NEED to take responsibility for my part in disagreements or me just plain being a real shit. the responsibility i NEED to take is to acknowledge my part in it, without blame, justifications, rationalizations or obfuscation. there is a step for that, and although the reading speaks about amends it is the tenth step where i find the tools to figure out my part in the whole putrid affair, and figure out what i need to do to correct, repair and amend the relationship.
so off to deal with some issues and let me see if i can get through today without the need to make any amends for my behavior.
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