δ active addiction kept me isolated for many reasons. Δ
Posted: Tue, May 20, 2008 09:03:40 AM
my life narrowed, and my concerns were confined to the daily maintenance of my disease. well, this is quite a meaty topic for the few minutes i have before running to the doctor. yes, part of my recovery program is taking care of my physical needs, and one of those needs to to have the status of my health checked out! the ironic part of this is, when i was active in my addiction, i never went to the doctor either. then i was afraid that they would find evidence of my active addiction. this is one of those attitudes that linger into recovery. no not the fear part, the isolation from medical professionals. well, i have a full life today, and the time has come for me to take an active part in maintaining that life, including a physical.
i no longer believe that i am bulletproof nor that i can live outside ther bounds of society. i do have responsibilities and relationships, and the only way i can be present for those is to take care of myself.
so if i get a chance to, i will write more when i return, for now, i am grateful that i no longer have to hide and isolate myself from the real world, a am a responsible, productive member of society.
i no longer believe that i am bulletproof nor that i can live outside ther bounds of society. i do have responsibilities and relationships, and the only way i can be present for those is to take care of myself.
so if i get a chance to, i will write more when i return, for now, i am grateful that i no longer have to hide and isolate myself from the real world, a am a responsible, productive member of society.
∞ DT ∞