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there was once a time when i accepted that i would use until the day i died, in fact i saw myself as a little old man sitting out on the porch of an old folks home getting high.
then there was i a time when i accepted that i could not get high but i imagined myself being boring, lonely, glum and hopeless.
the amazing thing about these different views of my future were that they were separated by less than a couple of months and the decision to get clean. amazing the difference that a few days can make in my outlook. and that difference is still evident in my life.
today, as this morning's reading reminded me, what my future looks like is a function of how i want to proceed from this moment in time. i do not believe my potential or what i can become is limited by anything except by my lack of vision. will i ever be rich, good-looking or famous? i do not know, but in actuality none of those things are important to me at this moment. will i ever be happy, satisfied, and fulfilled? probably, if i keep the FAITH, do those things i need to on a daily basis, and let my HIGHER POWER do its work.
-- DT --