โ the security i find in the love of this fellowship โ
Posted: Sat, Jan 4, 2014 08:15:06 AM
has made my new life possible. looking out my window, i see the snow falling and piling up on the streets and sidewalks. the little pup, who is becoming sexually mature is sitting by my chair chewing on her bone. the house is warm, the power is turned on, the internet is connected, and i have the means today, to keep all of that from going away, at least for this month. i do have friends, family members and more than one person who loves in my life and i get to celebrate eleven years together in six days, with her. on the outside my life looks so fVcking normal i could scream. yes, i spent years rebelling against looking like one of the “sheeple.” i was angry, dark and as edgy as possible, and as a person who considered himself an intellectual, this was the sort of life i never wanted, but secretly desired with all my heart, interesting what changes when active addiction is removed from the equation. so i am more than a bit distracted this morning as i write this, so instead of trying to do two things poorly at once i will let this go for now and move over to something that keeps the lights on, as it were. it is a great day to be clean and yes i can look anyone in the eye, today thanks to the changes the program has made in me.
∞ DT ∞