Blog entry for:

the last of these little ditties written on vacation and posted en-masse. relationships, huh? well a funny as in ironic thing happened on my way to vacation. when i was at a different meeting the week before we left for Medico, i was asked, if Kathy would be coming on vacation with me, or if i was traveling alone. at first, i was a bit put-off from that sort of question, after all, who takes a vacation from their significant other? instead of playing the victim and getting butt-hurt over what seemed to the asker a very innocent and far from loaded question, i said, of course we were vacationing together, as it is the only time we really get spend with each other and have nothing else going on. our live at home, are quite often, like ships in the night and we really do not allow ourselves the opportunity to just relax and enjoy each other. our trips away, allow for just that, time to be with each other and for each other, away from the distractions that fill our very busy lives. our relationship thrives, because we go away together, and as i thought about that question, i wondered about those who took separate vacations and how different their lives at home must be from ours.
so this morning, relationship and all that they entail got the topic working over in my mind. a quick dip into my neglected Eleventh Step, this morning the listening part, that is and here i am back at it again. just about everything know about relationships, i have learned since getting clean. for me relationships were one way streets, where i found how much i could take, long before i had to give anything. love was an abstract concept, one for losers, and caring, sympathy, or empathy, well they just were not part of my emotional repertoire. so step by step, as i progressed through each cycle of steps, it seems it is all about relationships. my first set of steps was about my relationships with substances and behaviors that altered the way i felt. the second, was about the relationship with myself. the third, my relationship with the POWER that fuels my recovery, nd this latest set is my relationships with others, namely my peers, coworkers and the people i share my lfe with, my social relationships outside of home and my family. this progression just seems so fVcking normal to me, i often wonder what sort of template it offers to the men i sponsor.
anyhow, template of not, it has brought me to this place, the sixth day on our Mexican vacation, a little weary after a bad night of sleep, definitely a bit red form way too much sun but relaxed and rejuvenated and with a new depth to the relationship i seem to have lucked into, before i thought i was ready.