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something that can be of use to others: my Experience, Strength and Hope. that package, does of course, include the days of living the lie that i was staying clean, and the biggest lie of all, that i had the desire to stay clean. today, that is not a lie, i woke up this morning and had the desire to stay clean and asked for the POWER that fuels my recovery, to keep me clean today., so from that point on, i GET to take the action to be present for the opportunities that facilitate that process. 🦄
the saga of my web hoisting continues, they showed me where they were “entitled to” automagically bill me 15 business days in advance for services they are going to render and had the nerve to tell me that they did not have access to the stored credit card information, but somehow, miraculously, the expiration date was updated to the new date on the card that arrived in my mailbox 90 days ago. FVcking Magic i guess. 🧙 they also showed me that early billing is a “feature” to protect me from my own idiocy and that i cannot remove a stored credit card, if there is only one attached to my account. after two chat sessions with a clueless chat agent, i finally made the phone call, spoke to a real person and thought i had resolved everything, and renewed what needed to be renewed. lo and behold, they broke my website this morning and another phone call and no apology or ETA of when it will be repaired. “sometime today, we will notify you by e-mail.” no offer of reimbursement, admission of their error or how one department cannot figure out what a customer may want, so needless to say, by March i will have my domain,m website and files moved and allow my relationship to expire with this company. i will not publicly slam them today, but if you want to know, who do avoid, just ask, i will certainly let you know. the heat that started yesterday has now risen to a rolling boil and threatens to consumes me. there is a good thing, though, i can now obsess about Fantasy Football to distract me from my anger with this POS company, so life is good. 🤨
what was i given way back when, that i can give to others today? the reading speaks of dinners, attention and literature, which is all well and good, but what i need and was actually given was a tiny bit of HOPE, that yes, even i could get clean, stay clean and live my life a little bit differently. as hard as i tried to avoid that realization, and trust me on this, i worked the loopholes over, there was always this tiny spark was down deep inside of me, that wanted something different, even if i could not admit it to myself. the members that were here, may not have treated my like fVcking newcomer royalty, as that was not how it was done when i got clean, but they treated as a member and a valued member of the No Matter What club and gave me what i needed to get to the place that i became a member. today, i can give that same gift to the newest of my peers, and even those who just cannot seem to “get” that this is a lifestyle and a matter of choice, regardless of what drags one into the rooms. with that thought on the top of my head, time to make the donuts. it is a great day to be clean.

∞ DT ∞